Lately I have had a lot of physical pain to deal with and it seems to have reached a particular threshold.
Because I have dyskinesia ("disco" arms and legs) I am rarely still and that puts stress on my muscles and infrastructure ...In particular my right shoulder and lower back (pinched disc- yes I have seen a specialist) has been so sore that I cannot sleep without sleeping pills. My right foot aches from constantly 'rolling under' & I seem to live on a diet of panadol and ibruprofen. I even notice if I miss my pain relief almost as much as if I miss my sinamet (dopamine).
But talking about pain is difficult -and at best boring. (sorry Kate). I mean how do you describe it? Do you scale it? Isn't it also about the tenure? We all know about cuts and bruises and the healing process, but a constant pain can become overwhelmingly debilitating.
In some respect it's easier to tell someone that your experiencing mental pain (e.g. sadness, frustration or lack of motivation) than saying I've got a sore shoulder, and back - and foot (yawn).
Anyway I wrote this on Monday for me, but I think it's going to be for you too -
- whatever kind of pain you have, have had or will have.
Kia Kaha. (be strong, stand tall)
Andy McDowell
World of Pain
Pain is personal,
No body else feels mine
– not that I want them to.
I wouldn’t wish that
Nor would I depart from it
- entirely anyway
Deep down
It is forming, teaching me
Shaping us how to be
But still
- it hurts
